Trigger warning: potential sa
Earlier in the day, she asked me if we should have another baby. I said no. Then, during sex that night, she put all her weight down on me instead of getting off of me when I tapped her to indicate I was about to finish. (That’s how we always finish. I tap her and we stop.)
When she dismounted me, she had a mischievous smirk on her face like she knew she did something tricky. I told her that it wasn’t cool and she said that I’m strong enough to throw her off if I wanted to. And that I’m “the one with stuff squirting out” of me and that “usually your control is better”.
The next morning, I brought it up again and told her that if it was the other way around, if I did that to her, it would not be good. and she was dismissive and said “what… are you mad at me?” As if it would be weird if I were upset with what she did.
I felt disgusted and violated after it. It kept me up the rest of the night. It happened over 6 months ago and still feels demoralizing.
Did my wife SA me?
Edit: Thanks for the support everyone. I want to clarify that I wouldn’t be upset if we got pregnant by mistake during consensual sex. I know the risks of sex without contraceptive. We have two beautiful little girls. Both were conceived the only two times we were trying to have kids. The only two times I finished inside of her. This is about a power dynamic of her asking me about that specific act, getting a “no” in response, then forcefully making it happen anyway. Please do not tell me to use contraceptives or get a vasectomy. Ever since this incident, I’ve been using the ultimate contraceptive, which is complete abstinence because of the way I feel about her actions.