(english is not my first language)
So my sister gave birth literally a month ago. The baby was planned.
Before the baby arrived I explained that I can come help about once a week. I have a full time job, and I just went back to uni to finish my degree (after dropping out a few years ago). I have also been struggling with my mental health like depression and I am generally a pretty low energy person.
Anyway, a few days ago sister and partner sit me down and lectured me for half an hour about how dissapointed they are with me, how they expected more help from me, how i am not providing them with emotional support and I refused to stay overnight. Even tho before that had a baby I only ever promised coming to help 1x a week.
My sister is definitely having a postpartum depression (she is on antidepressants) and constant panic attacks. Her partner doesn’t current work so they are both at home full time.
The help I already provided for them: I watched their dog for 4 days (working from HO) whirl they were in the hospital, visited them in the hospital (brought them stuff they needed). I continued to visit them 2-3 times a week (usually for 3-6 hrs at a time) and everytime i come i go to the shop to buy stuff they need, i then walk their dog (1 or 2 times per visit ), do some housework (cleaning bathroom, loading/unloading dishwasher, vacuuming) and watch the baby for up to 2 hrs at a time so they can get a quick nap.
The situation escalated when Tuesday last week they called in the middle of the workday to come immediately. I did. Basically they were considering going to the hospital because baby didn’t not gain weight in a few days (eventually chose not to – now, several days later, baby is already okay and is gaining weight as he is supposed to). After staying with them that day until like 9pm they asked me to stay overnight. I refused, because I have an annual performance review and a presentation at work the next day.
When I came visited the next time, they sat me down and delivered that speech where they told me they were extremely dissapointed (my sister partner was talking) and how if he was in my situation he would give everything to family. I sort of stood my grounds, since I already told them I can help max 1x per week (i said this before the bay was born) and I was already coming over more because I care about them.
Also, my mother and another one relative also come to them a few times a week to help with the baby.
Today I eventually send them a short message where I explained again that current I can only come about once a week and that i care about them but need my boundaries respected. They haven’t replied yet.
I would appreciate any advice, because I am very overwhelmed and still feel very quilty. I don’t know if I really should like try to get over myself and try coming over more often. I am preparing for an exam right now, and have work every day so I don’t really have the capacity.
Basically, I need some perspective over whether I am ruining our relationship forever for refusing helping them more often?
Thank you.
small update: thank you everyone for your kind messages! i was not expecting this post to get so much attention. I received a few messages accusing me of being a bot account so just to make sure: very real people with real situation (I am literally posting from my main account, where I have been posting for the last 5 years). Thank you all again. I am more firm in my decision to stick to my boundaries.