For context: back in December I was at a school party waiting for food when one of my friends tapped me on the shoulder and told me that one of her friends thought I was cute. i instantly started internally freaking out. I didn’t know if I was supposed to go up to him or what, and it genuinely felt like I was having a heart attack, so I just grabbed my food and rushed inside because I'm not used to dating people who wasn't perviously friends with.
The rest is kind of a blur, but next thing I know, both my friends and his friends start hyping us up, making jokes like “when’s the wedding?” and asking if we’re dating. I panicked and said yes, then we took pictures together. Now I feel stuck because I don’t actually know how to talk to him.
I think he wants a relationship and he keeps trying to start conversations, but I freeze every time. I stutter, my heart feels like it’s going a million miles a minute, and my brain just goes blank. I’ve always been bad at talking to people, but this feels like a whole new level of anxiety.
I want to be a good girlfriend, but I literally can’t talk properly around him and I don’t know why. I’m scared I’ll ruin things if I don’t talk to him more, especially because my last relationship ended for basically the same reason.
Has anyone else dealt with this? How do you stop panicking and actually talk to someone you like?