I start spewing nonsense since I’m dissociating midway through. I’m also very uncomfortable with closeness or emotions. I’m an avoidant. So most of my past friendships felt shallow. I’ve never really had an example to follow since my parents didn’t have close friends on surface level acquaintances- that’s part of our culture rlly. So I’d like to learn.
I’m from a pretty dysfunctional background and I go to a strong uni with a lot of opportunities to make connections. I don’t wanna waste this opportunity just because I find small talk or deeper convos uncomfortable.