In September, my boyfriend (26M) broke up with me suddenly while on deployment. The deployment had really strained our relationship, but I was adamant about us fixing things when he got home. He had a bunch of reasons for the break up (he felt like a different person than he did before leaving, he didn’t think we’d make a good married couple, he wanted a different life than me) but up until August he had been talking about how excited he was to see me again and restart our life together. We had an apartment picked out, he had even asked me to figure out my ring size, and we had talked about doing a little backyard wedding.
I was pretty blindsided by the break up, and I’m still struggling with it. I had a little too much to drink on New Year’s Eve and texted him happy new year’s, and he replied that he wished things had been different between us. When I offered for us to talk about it and work out our relationship, he didn’t reply. I really thought he was the one and I’m still really struggling with letting go. A few weeks ago, one of my friends suggested I try dating again, but the idea made me feel guilty. He and his family still interact with my social media, and it’s really confusing me. He’s not the manipulative type, so I don’t think he continues to like my posts because he wants to have emotional control over me.
Why is he still doing that if we’re not together and he doesn’t want to talk about us? How do I move on? I know the obvious answer is to block him, but I don’t know if I’m ready to 100% cut ties with him.