I really don't know if I need advice or just wanted to vent out. I don't even know why am I feeling this way, I want to think it's because of my pregnant hormones. But I really don't feel my husband loves me. I want to believe his words but why can't I feel it? And it hurts so much.
Last night, we were on a video call (we're LDR) but I noticed that he's spacing out so I already feel a bit sad. We're physically away from each other and even on New Year's Eve he's spacing out. Turned out he's reading a web novel. he often sleep late these days cause he's too engrossed in reading them. While whenever we are on a video call he'll be too sleepy. I already communicated before that when we have a call, it would be nice to be present to each other. But there's always something he'll do. Scroll through FB, or shopping platforms. I already feel so alone in our marriage and even I told him about the things that hurt me, nothing changes. And now, I'm spending the first day of the year crying. I wish I could just leave and go somewhere but I'm heavily pregnant and been really physically tired.
I don't know what to do. I don't have people to talk to. Plus, it's the New Year, it's supposed to be a happy occasion. Can't spoil the fun for my friends and family. So, I'm just here all alone. Crying again.
I hope no one else is feeling this way today.