I (28F) went through a pretty nasty breakup just a couple days before Christmas. We dated 3 mos but had a deep connection. It definitely left me heartbroken. I feel like I’ve had 5 significant heartbreaks in the last 5 years (4 being spouses, 1 being my grandpa dying unexpectedly).
I’m tired. I’m sad. I’m confused. I used to always express how much I wanted a man, a husband, and multiple children… but after the last 5 years – I simply don’t know if I want any of those things anymore.
I see so many people around me who have this “ideal life” with the husband & the kid & they absolutely hate it. Granted, they have shitty partners & should have thought about that long before they committed in marriage… but still. I feel I’ve really lost all faith in finding someone, but I finally feel okay(ish) about it?
I think I’ve spent so much time being vulnerable that now I have 0 capacity to be vulnerable at all. Not when it’s heartbreak after heartbreak, lie after lie, deception after deception.
Why has dating become so hard? It’s such a joke? I truly thought by this age I would have found someone who really loved me for me.