For context, I used to be a COMPLETE sub in my previous relationships (literal throwing, choking, bruising, slapping) and since my current bf has way more sexual experience than me, I initially thought he would live up to his "dom" stories (although not as extreme).
Whenever we have sex, I usually finish when I am on top of him or when he's eating me out / fingering me. I know us women rarely finish in missionary, but I don't particularly enjoy missionary anymore now and I'm not sure why it does not feel as good. A few minutes in and I would ask to switch positions. Oddly enough, he can't finish in missionary too (only when I am on top/from blowjobs) I am unsure why because we love each other so much and our relationship is super healthy. When he's on top its like he's not sure what feels good for me / him, I can see it on his face. He made me finish once though from missionary but it was a one time thing, and he needed to pound hard in a very specific position.
Once I realized this which was pretty late, around 6 months into our relationship, I voluntarily go on top immediately and our sex life drastically improved. I find that I now enjoy being the dominant one on top since I get to control the pace and finish multiple times, plus I get to see him enjoy the show. I am a sucker for soft whimpering and moaning and oh my god every time I am on top, he just loses it.
Despite our recent discovery and both of us feeling satisfied with the dynamics now, I still do want to enjoy missionary but I feel so bad because I don't enjoy it anymore now. Are we doing anything wrong and how to improve?