She absolutely hates me. It has gotten much worse in the past mont, but has been this way for a couple of years. During a recent argument she said maybe you should just kill yourself, twice. The last couple of arguments she has begun to make contact with me. When I try to walk away to not engage she blocks my exit and then intentionally bumps into me and says owww as though I hurt her. Yesterday as I was walking away after an argument she grabbed the hood of my hoodie as I was walking down the stairs trying to escape the argument. I was on the 4th stair down and had a video recording to protect myself. There is audio of me saying you are choking me you have to let me go. She slipped on the top stair and stumbled into my back. I said if you choke me like that again I’m taking you with me. Not the best thing to say but she was horse collaring me at the top of the stairs. She then started to make herself cry and saying that I said I was going to kill her which I definitely didn’t. Obviously I should get out, but we have two young children that are the most important thing in the world to me, and I fear she would flee back to her home country, or just absolutely decimate me financially. We are already barely staying afloat. It all feels so out of control and like everything is on fire.