At the urging of my people, I’m (36f) here to put myself out there again… fml. I don’t have anything in my life together right now. I’m a mess tbh, for many reasons. I’m typically fit and attractive. Have put on some winter weight cuz all I’ve been doing is reading romantasy series and stuffing my face in the middle of the night and commenting on man hating posts while not showering for up to 3 days.
But I’m singllleeee wooooo…
I’m educated and have tons of work experience and relationship experience if that’s a flex. I ain’t a ho tho.. look young for my age. I want to say I have a great personality but that’s been quite wanting lately too so… idk. I have some traumas and issues and am clearly pretty unhappy. I don’t know why people tend to like me but they usually do. I’m fortified by connection and good company and novelty. I can be really fun and funny. But I’m losing hope in all that lately too. I cling to the misunderstood trope like a baby koala. There’s good things about me I’m just tired of remembering them right now. I’m tired of everything. I have a temper too and my love language is probably confrontation.
Despite being in a lovely place in life, I don’t need to deal with a loser who’s gonna make it all even worse. I’ve learned a little too much about life and people and myself, so I’m pretty selective now about who I have around me. I can’t do long distance anymore it’s too hard and I’m too old for that shit. I live in SoCal and am south Asian American. If I cared I’d prefer someone very steady, smart, and into short and passionate women who are kinda nerdy and girly and spiritual.
I don’t want a hookup or a waste of time. Dating apps are trash for real connection. Looking to actually get to know people and relate life experiences with peers just like the rules here say to do alright?