So my husband and I met when I was 19 and we got married when I was 20. Because we married young I didnt really ever get to transition from being dependent on my parents to being independent, I never really got the chance to live life as a young adult or live alone, maneuvering adult life alone.
its not anything I regret either because im having the time of my life married to my best friend, but at times it also makes me sad seeing my friends from before we got married hanging out with new friends they made without me.
They seem like they hang out with friends super often, I always see on their social media that they have hangouts. I was friends with them as individuals before, but after I met my husband we didn't hang out as much and they all branched out and now they have their own friends who are people I don't really know that well. I feel happy for them that they have friends like that, but it also makes me sad seeing the people I would consider my only friends kind of move on from me and atp become closer to those other people than they are to me.
Really now the only time I hang out with friends is when I purposely plan something like a gathering at my house, but even then it feels kind of distant, I dont feel completely comfortable with anyone or particularly close to anyone anymore aside from my husband. Maybe its that we all grew up and we're not teens anymore, or maybe we've just all changed and started to follow different paths in life, but its becoming harder and harder to connect with the girls i call my close friends…sometimes I don't even want to put in the effort to socialize with anyone because no one understands me or vibes with me like my husband does.
It makes me fearful too… because at this point my husband is my only "best friend" since I am with him 24/7 and we just work so well together…but if something happens to him, i feel like it will break me, I will be truly alone.
Anyone else going through something like this? I realize i have to do something about it and become more independent… but i dont really know how, and i don't want it to affect our relationship either 🙁