I havent had a hard crush since high school. I had boyfriends in between. I have a huge crush on my guy friend. I work with him so i see him everyday. Id say we’re close. But we are probably closer in my head than in reality. But we do talk about our personal lives and such and have been on trips together (w just each other and groups). I felt it out today and i can tell he does not like me that way. Its been months of having this crush, which is reoccurring actually bc i liked him for a while 2 years ago. But today really confirmed it for me that he doesnt like me. I asked him if he wS doing anything on our day off. He said no. So i asked if he would like to go out of town. He basically made an excuse that he might need to do something (somethjng that can def be done before/after work/ another day/ can be worked around) and he said maybe. But he said maybe, but based on his excuse it was a no. No bias no misreading the language meant no. I just want to get over this crush. My life feels like an endless cycle of liking one boy or another. I dont want to like a different guy. I just dont want to like anyone and i dont know how to get over this. And i already understand: learning to love myself, work, school, be busy. I already love myself a decent amount and i work a lot and am extremely busy. Its almost like liking him is my escape in a way. I dont know i just want to stop having feelings for him im so tired of yearning and feeling hurt by the smallest things. And i cant confess bc ill be even more hurt.
TL;DR: I want to get over my on off crush of 9 months but I already love myself and am very busy and have a full rounded life.