To preface, I’ve removed myself as the pursuer in the dating pool, but if someone comes up to me and asks me out and I’m interested, I won’t deny myself a good thing.
Last night, I said yes to a rather spontaneous date after work with a new person. Long story short, he was attractive, decently dressed, educated, seems really nice honestly but god was he just…boring! He definitely couldn’t keep up in the more intellectual conversations and oftentimes his only response to me would be “ok” or “huh”. And while a bit disappointing, I’m also glad? I don’t entirely understand why, but after the last few dates I’ve been on with other men where I genuinely felt a strong connection, attraction, chemistry and extreme interest only for things to go south on a Sunday and get told they don’t want anything serious or just ghost me after a month and a half, I’m a little relieved that I don’t have to experience a much deeper let down.
He told me he had fun and wants to see me again but I’m not really sure why? It didn’t seem like he was all that interested himself. I’m kinda assuming he’s saying what he thinks he needs to say to get into my pants.
Anyways, the yearning for something real continues. At least I don’t have to enter a new week of heartache in the meantime. Cheers!