I got pregnant after 7 miscarriages. I was 19 weeks and started having contractions. I went to triage and they told me I was dialated and the water bag was coming out. They said fetal survival would be unlikely, and I would probably go into labor in the next day. They suggested terminating. Drs told me if I do make it to viability, the twins would likely be disabled. I wanted to terminate because I cannot deal with disabled twins. My husband begged me to not terminate. He swore the twins wouldn’t be disabled because of early intervention. Even if they do get a brain bleed, early intervention would fix everything. He swore he would do anything for us once they were born. I made it to 24 weeks and had to have a C section. One twin died of a brain bleed, the other is doing well (it’s a miracle) BUT he has a terrible problem with vomiting, is tube fed, and he’s delayed. When early intervention comes over, my husband dissapears. We have 7 people come a week and my husband wants nothing to do with them. He does not help me with the exercises, he dosent help me with his development even though hes so delayed. He will not even sit on the floor and play with the baby, or try to teach him words. He dissapears often. Life at home is terrible. The baby pukes 20x a day The only thing I can think about is getting him better, and the only thing my husband can think about is how his mother deserves to meet the baby even though she threatened to kill me a few years back. My husband said if I ever left him, he could prove my mental health is too poor to be near the baby and he would have his mother be the caregiver and they would have custody. My husband complains to his family how I do nothing all day. My days are spent doing therapies, tube feeding the baby every half hr, appointments, changing his clothes 15x a day because he pukes all day long. I’m glad I went through with the pregnancy. My son is the light of my life. But I just need to talk to someone anonymously because I know this is a controversial topic. Thank you
Edit: the threat to kill me was real. Husband told me to watch out cuz she might try to run me over