we have been together for 6, going into 7 years. we have had such an amazing relationship with lots of ups and downs that we still continue to work on. We broke up 3 years ago due to the love not feeling like it was there. During that time we were broken up for 8 months where he invited girls to his home but nothing more (from what I was told. I was a little crazy back then and did a lot of digging and I mean A LOT. I even reached out to the girls).
during these 3 years, he has been making a lot of assumptions of me cheating on him. He THINKS he found something:
found hand prints in HIS car, dug through my iPad and found a random video of literally nothing from years ago that was in my FAMILY GROUP CHAT (the video was of a body part that we both couldn’t figure out and a man’s voice. I have 3 brothers). TLDR
I don’t want to leave him. I do love him. This just makes everything so hard for me. I feel like I have to watch what I say because he digs for evidence in my words and actions and even my body language. I feel like it’s why our relationship isn’t as strong as it should be. Every time we have a conversation about it, then he just says “maybe I’m crazy” and it’s to the point where I just have to agree. I don’t so anything to make him even slightly think I’m cheating, besides these “coincidences” he keeps finding. I suggested therapy but don’t want to push something he may not be com with. I’ve suggested different ways such as practicing mindfulness and getting out of his head. I am just lost now. I don’t want it to end.