20+ years into this marriage and i can’t shake the sense that i feel more alone when i am with him than when i am by myself. We don’t have conversations or share interests. I have things i am passionate about like my art and my job and the kids. He does not. I ask him questions bc i want to hear about his day and he answers with “a lot like the day before’. I ask what he’d like to do or where he would like to go for birthday or anniversary or night out snd get “i don’t care”. But i think what really gets me is the complete lack of interest he has in me – he never asks about my day or has questions or interest in the things i do. I can finish a project or art piece i have been tinkering with and he doesn’t even want to see it. And i hate that i am at a place where even if he started to express an interest, i would probably not want to talk, bc i feel like he would just suck the joy out of it.
I needed to vent… thanks for letting me whine