Okay so my boyfriend (19M) and I (18F) just had sex for the first time and honestly I’m confused. He usually doesn’t let me touch him for long like he’ll start things, then I touch him over his pants, he takes them off, and then when I actually start, he touches me too at the same time and then i get like overwhelmed and get kinda lost and the positioning gets weird
Foreplay is basically just a few minutes of rubbing/grinding, so it’s not really a thing we do which is unfortunate but idk how to ask for more because i’m kind of self conscious about my skill.
This time he asked if we should have sex, I said okay, and we went for it. We started in missionary, then I tried being on top. Getting the rhythm is so tricky, and then he ended up doing most of the thrusting. It felt good, but I felt kinda shy to moan even though I’m usually a bit loud when we’re making out. He would try to like move me by grabbung my hips but like after a minute i lose the rythm again because it feels really good/overwhelming.
The thing is he’s super quiet, sometimes closes his eyes, or looks down at like my lower stomach idk, so it’s hard to tell if he’s actually enjoying it.
I also feel weird about touching him like I try, but he doesn’t really react, so I’m worried I’m bad at handjobs. I’d like to give him oral too, but I don’t really know how to start since we don’t do much foreplay and i’m incredibly shy😞 The whole thing lasted like forty minutes before we had to stop because u had to go.
Honestly, I just want to feel more confident and make it fun for both of us. Any advice!!!!!!