We’ve been together nearly 20 years. About 5 years ago he revealed to me some childhood trauma that was quite shocking…he’s in therapy .
The last few years there has been two incidents where he has gotten black out drunk at a party or whatever and then later broken down and told me he has flashbacks of being extremely flirtatious with other women and has a weeks long spiral over it thinking he’s ruined our lives because of his ways, but then goes on to say he’s pretty sure it’s his past trauma that has led him to this. Again, he is in therapy.
Anyway, it’s happened again recently and I just feel numb and embarrassed. Nothing “actually happened” just “flirting”, whatever that means. I’m not going to leave him, we have a family. But he needs to stop drinking to the point of excess (happens once every couple of months id say) where he puts himself in such a state that he acts in stupid ways. Drunk people do dumb things and I’m pretty forgiving, but now it’s like, stop getting drunk if you can’t trust your actions.
Anyway, just wanted to get it off my chest as there’s literally no one I could talk to about this.