Guys so i haven't really shared this with anyone.. I'm 22/M there is this girl 21/F i liked in school since 5th grade..we became good frds and then in 10th i proposed her n she said yes..i was over the moon bt the feeling was short lasted as she dumped me after 2 months without telling me any reason..prolly she got scared of parents n all (she was in 9th..i was in 10th) and this jst left me confused… afterwards i dated other ppl…kinda moved on..bt i went back to the school where she was doing her 12th…for a function n met her after 2 yrs ig…it all jst came back, the memories moments, everything..i was back where i started n ever since i haven't been able to move on..i literally dated one girl jst coz she looked like her..whatever i do. I'm not able to forget her ..i really swear it ain't anything physical or anything i haven't even seen her irl since 4 yrs..still some part of me always longs for that one moment when i can jst meet her..its like my mind is wired wrong or smthing..anything i do I can't get her out of my fucking head…tried talking to her told her all this..n that time she gave mixed signals after all this time..i told her I didn't see u since a long time..she started sending snaps of herself for sm days after that (she's so private that even her insta doesn't hav any picture posted).. then when i said I'll always love u…she took a screenshot of that..kinda confusing.. she's not a bad girl. she's been single ever since..even the reason she told me to say no was..she knows her parents are strict n I don't wanna mislead u..bt she did unknowingly… I've dated other ppl…bt nvr even felt half of what i feel for her… it's like I'm stuck in this loop..
I've nvr been the majnu kinds..nvr even bothered her with texts or anything …bt i really really feel smthing thats not in my control… I'm not overthinking..she really doesn't get outta my head..what should i do?
TLDR; dated a girl for a brief time..was my childhood love…broke up n now I'm unable to move on