I feel like a loser. I’m 18 years old and all my friends have been going to parties more often than usual. Normally I wouldn’t care that much but as I’m about to enter college I’m conflicted.
I don’t go to parties for a number of reasons. 1. I have a girlfriend and all my friends really only go to parties for girls and alcohol.
2. I don’t drink or smoke due to having an addictive personality and bad family history.
3. I kinda hate the environment. I love talking to people and hanging out but I just feel so out of it in the big crowds. Not to mention the empty feeling that always follows.
The problem is I feel like my decision to not party is costing me my friends and maybe my social life. I don’t get to see my friends as much because they’re partying more often and at this point they don’t invite me because they know how I am and they are generally less interested in regular hang outs. This also scares me for what college is gonna be like and how hard it’ll be to make friends. I’m so social but I feel like I’m doomed to be lonely because of party culture.