Would love to know what it’s like to actually have a great partner and marriage. My wife and I have been fighting non-stop since we had our baby, he will be 1 year old in February. He is the worst sleeper and I’m sure a lot of this is stemming from exhaustion but lately the fights have been getting out of control and we both end up losing it and throwing things not at our son but near each other. I feel like anything I do or say or not do or not say is used against me. My wife and I both work full time she’s a teacher and I’m in healthcare management. My commute to and from work is about an hour. She tells me that I don’t step in and help when I should. I may not perfect o know that but I do try and help. At night I’ll hear her start to get frustrated with him so I get up to check and see maybe if I can rock him back to sleep. I don’t really agree with him sleeping in bed with her (we have been sleeping in separate beds for months now). However, when I go to help she tells me there is nothing I can do so I can just go lay back down. I still try to help but I was told that our neighbor who is much older would come home and tell his wife to go to the store and take a break and he would watch the 3 kids. When I offered that in the last she tells me that going grocery shopping is not a break. I am at a loss and honestly waiting to hear back from a divorce attorney on what next steps might look like. We both have been sick for what seems like months now. I’m just tired of feeling this way I don’t like being at home and feel very alone. I just feel bad for my son who this will impact the most. A lot to unpack but I’m at my limits. I’m sure I will get comments that shit on me as being a terrible father/husband. At this point I don’t care anymore say what you want I know I do the best that I can. I’m sure the divorce will be ugly but she claims she couldn’t afford anything which is not true she works in a really good school district and will make over 100k a year. I also will be able to help split the cost of items like daycare.