I'll keep it as short as I can. Please no negativity… I grew up in a divorced house on the lake with a toxic family business. My whole life, they have trained me to be in sales and be in a position to take the jewelry company over. It makes good money, but my parents have always been very controlling and aggravated with me. I have terrible ADHD and extremely bad self-esteem issues. Im 31.
I've been married for 5 years to a beautiful, great girl I've known since elementary school. We have 2 amazing kids together and i love them. But she grew up in a highly abusive household and is loaded with PTSD, mentally health issues, super bad anxiety and many other issues. We are separated when I discovered she was doing OnlyFans behind my back. Then, she began sleeping around, including with 2 od my friends and the old man next door, because she couldn't cope with being alone and the family being broken up. I have HUGE resentment and am having a hard time forgiving her. Most of her friends are guys and almost all of them just want to sleep with her. Makes me feel very insecure the way she entertains them.
My problem now is I can't make up my mind. Its a constant push/pull and they are fighting for control of me. My parents and my wife HATE HATE HATE each other and it's now at the point where I have to choose. If I choose the business and divorce her, I'll never really have any peace with her, the kids will suffer long term and I will carry crushing guilt and shame possibly the rest of my life. It will be crushing financially and my heart will remain broken. I do not have the confidence to dare approach another woman.
If I choose to get serious help and take my family back and move back in with her… I lose my career, my financial future, written out of the will and everything I have worked my ass off for since I was a teenager. My parents are trying to protect me and their life's work and just want to see me happy… my wife has loved me, had my back when we are together and desperately wants to help me handle my depression and get my life back on track.
It's such a hard decision for me because I feel like neither option is going to make me happy. My wife is very dominant and is an expert at putting my down, nitpicking, nagging and making me feel like shit. My parents are both narcissistic and miserable people who only care about money and are so work driven nobody wants to be around them.
If it were yall in this position… what would you do? My life is being ruined more and more every day the longer I stay in this position.