So 18m inshort i have suffered very bad traumas in life since 2017 still going on but idk what is happening with me like existential crisis , crying, strees to itna hota ki i hairline chud gyi , academics extreme downfall , all this and situation too fucked up that i quite skin care got tanned, idk if i am in depression or i am suffering from mental illnes like
I am scared and think all the time
I think how i will live i havs no one i need someone to support or control me or else i will crash out easily
I think about the 10 11 yo old me when i was a topper , better body , confidence, everything on trace until that very bad thing happened whole life changed
And sadly i cried while writing this sometimes i think i shall not see 30
Idk what is happening like i was born to. Suffer and still suffering