So i (a woman) can only orgasm if I grind against something, usually a pillow. But im wondering if there was a way to make it so i can orgasm from just penetrative sex? The first time I ever orgasmed was from my boyfriend fingering me (no grinding, this was about 10 months ago) and there was multiple times where we had penetrative sex and did different positions and ive orgasmed from that. But I got a dildo about 7 months ago and I soon figured out the easiest and fastest way to orgasm from that was grinding. So thats genuinely all I did for a while since me and my boyfriend only have sex like once a week (long distance) Fast forward now, I honestly haven't orgasmed from not grinding in 7 months when having any type of penetrative sex and I feel horrible about lying about my orgasms to my boyfriend. Rarely ill get pretty close but then theres just genuinely no release and it doesnt go across that point, and i know its not a problem with my boyfriend or his performance. We've tried every position in the book and yet its nothing. Do I just need to completely stop using the dildo in general to reverse this or am i stuck this way? I feel horrible!