TL;DR M22 Boyfriend has been completely dry for almost 3 months after I (F18) had accused him of cheating and has been saying "idk what i want" for all this time. I need help
We‘ve been together for 3 years and about almost 3 months ago I’d thought he was cheating and got upset and removed him from things and I know it was irrational to do instead of communicate, but I fully thought he was doing something so I went about it as if he were doing something, but I didn’t block him and block off all communication but I know it wasn’t a rational reaction. The way I went about what I thought was immature and I keep apologizing but the only reason I’d accused him of cheating was because I asked him nicely not to do something because I was afraid it would hurt him (drink raw milk) but he didn’t acknowledge what I said and how I was feeling, he said he did at the time but it doesn’t feel that way, even now. So a few days later from then he’s not talking to me the same and I start overthinking as soon as I noticed it and I didn’t mention how I’d been feeling and the thoughts kept building up hence why I acted like I did. His reaction was me projecting that I’m cheating, which I’m not. I just felt insecure and overthinking just made it worse. I’ve apologized so many times and I still am, but it’s been almost 3 months as I said previously, and he’s been ignoring my texts consecutively for days on end sometimes and being off putting. He keeps saying “idk what i want“. He’s still acting possessive and watching my profile on things?? The other day he’d asked who I was following on Instagram then goes to say he was watching the activity on my profile. And gets defensive when he thinks I turned off “read receipts” on iMessage. I understand why he’d be upset and feel conflicted but 3+ months and still somewhat talking to me and being possessive? I’m confused.