I am F 18 and he is M 21
I’m at a breaking point and I don’t know what to do anymore.
I want to break up with my boyfriend, but I’m scared and completely torn. He’s done things that have hurt me deeply—he cheated on me multiple times, continued talking to other girls after I asked him not to, mocked me during a panic attack, called the police on me while I was in one, and has used threats and guilt to keep me from leaving.
These things still haunt me.
At the same time, he isn’t bad all the time. Most of the time he’s there for me, he buys me gifts, reassures me, and lately he’s been trying to improve.
That’s what makes this so confusing and painful. I don’t know how to end this relationship or if I’m strong enough to follow through. I’m terrified of being alone—I don’t have many friends and my parents are busy—and I don’t even know what my life would look like after a breakup.
I just know I can’t keep living in this constant fear, confusion, and emotional pain. Please, I really need advice on how to leave and what to do afterward. I feel lost and desperate for help.
TLDR: I’m honestly just not sure if I should be working on myself and my overthinking or if I should just quickly get out of this relationship while I can?