Why do I (39F) want to see my boyfriend (40M) cheat on me? I really don’t (I cover my eyes and peek), but it would make me incredibly horny and hurt me deeply at the same time. I’m so confused by my fantasy. I want to see what he looks like when he wants someone else and how hard he gets. I wouldn’t want to be seen, but after that, I want him to lie to me and have sex with me. I don’t think this is everyone’s fantasy. I’ve brought it up, and he just chuckles. I told him that it doesn’t mean you have a pass because I’d get off on it. A threesome doesn’t count either. It’s like I like deceit. How do I change this horny mind fuckery.