Back story:
I 31(F) and husband 36(M) got arranged married around 7 years ago. We did get married quickly due to part of culture but we both got connected on our same ideologies and felt like we are a good match.
He didn’t do anything romantic and have always been practical (doesn’t like celebrating birthdays or festivals much) and Me being hopeless romantic and celebrating everything, expected a lot in the beginning of marriage but later I understood it’s not a big deal and carried on with life. The best part, we have same financial goals, both are financially independent of each other (always have split everything 50-50), share kinda same ideology about life and kids, etc. I struggled having passionate sex as we both were learning each other’s needs, blaming communication gap, my libido started falling and we never talked about our kinks or fantasies up until recently.
Current situation:
I feel I suppressed my emotional and sexual needs so much so that I went on with life as is without expecting much and now suddenly my libido is at the highest and I realized I cannot feel sexually aroused by him. We both had a discussion once in past about our kinks and did try for a while but it kinda stopped and weren’t as “wild” in the bed. Looking back at my life decisions and suddenly started thinking “Is this what I want from our marriage? Can I ever experience love at first sight, or passionate sex or feel desired ever?”
We have been trying to fix things for a while now, but everything at this point seems forced and useless. Since he brought up Divorce, I have been rethinking it too and it’s hard for me to get us back on track again.
Is this existential crisis on my end? Does this usually happen in marriages like ours? Is it fixable or is separation the only answer?
P.S: Not looking for any creepy DMs please!