For context, I'm 110lbs. I used to be 100lbs a while back. He noticed that I gained weight and asked me about it. When I told him that I gained 10 pounds, he started telling me that he doesn't want me gaining any more weight, because he likes me the way I look now and that he's not into bigger girls. He said that bigger girls aren't his type and that if I gain any more weight, he doesn't know if he could stay with me and that it's possible that he'd lose attraction.
I get that he has a type, but that hurt me a lot. I've been struggling with my weight all my life and when I finally start loving myself, I get told that. I feel like I will never be allowed to be okay with my body. Now I'm scared of gaining one single pound. I'm scared that if I do, he'll judge me, he won't like me anymore and that will be it. I thought he liked me as a person and now I feel heartbroken. I'll eat less, that's fine, but I feel so hated right now. This whole relationship feels fake to me at the moment and I don't know what to say anymore.