I have been 3 years in this company i am working at. I was the only female with all men in the office. I usually never clicked with men in my life due to some bad experiences, so by default I didnt speak much to my coworkers. Also becausd I am an introvert and a bit socially awkward. Then 2 new girls came into our office, and of course I was happy that there are finally women working with me also. Fast forward some months and me and the other two girls are getting along very well. I was very content that I made new female coworkers that I could consider even friends in the future. Then this past Friday we had a christmas party for our company. I obviously sticked with the girls the entire party for most of the time. I thought everyting was going really well. Next day I woke up having a bit of a hangover and started thinking about all of my friendships or lack of. Then it suddenly hit me that all of this time that I thought I was getting along with these two girls, it was always me initating the conversations. Never did any of them started it. Maybe this next move was stupid of me, but I decided to make a test to not initiate any conversations with them to see if they would say anything to me. Guess what happened? It has been 3 days now, and none of the women said to me or asked me anything in that time at work. Absolutely zero. I am quite shocked as I thought that we were getting along well and enjoyed ourselves at the christmas party. But it was all along me who pushed for these conversations. I just kind of gave up on everything now. I decided that I wont spend my energy anymore on people who cant show at least a little bit of care or even common decency. I think the best option is to not speak anymore unless spoken to, that way I can see if anyone genuinely enjoys my company, not just tolerates me.
Does anyone think this is the right thing to do? I don't know what am I doing wrong. I have always been nice and considerate to people.