I am having a real hard time with my relationship. I have past trauma where my current boyfriend and I previously broke up because he still had feelings for his ex. He didn’t have the guts to admit it, but I did have that woman’s intuition and it turned out I was right! On top of that, I also had every previous boyfriend cheat on me so I come with a lot of PTSD and insecurities, like somehow I’m the one to blame for my exes cheating. I have worked through it with Therapy as best I could, but I can’t help but overthink and be sensitive. Like tonight, for example, my boyfriend and I don’t live together and so last week he asked me to review one of his job applications, but he was busy with family stuff. Tonight he tells me he’s free, so I ask him “do you want me to come over?“. His response is “if you want, but I have to get up early to go to work”. Like I don’t? Dude I’m driving to YOU to help YOU. Couple hours later, he texts me and asks me if I am going over or not. And I said no, it did not seem like you are keen on seeing me tonight. His answer: OK. Not, no, I want to see you, or, don’t take it the wrong way. Simple OK as if he is affirming that he did not want to see me tonight. He goes into these moments where he is all lovey-dovey and other moments where he is at best indifferent about me. I never know where I am. Sometimes, when that happens, I get PTSD from the time that I feel like he is still in love with his ex, even though he assures me he’s not. Am I wasting my time here? Am I overthinking things?
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