I recently flew out to see my girl friend for her birthday. Last night at the bar she went through my texts while I went to the bathroom. I have nothing to hide so I was like whatever.
Tonight I went through her phone and she was very resistant about it and I said that’s not very fair since you went through mine. I then saw a picture from a month ago of a buddy laying on her legs in my bed while I’m also in the picture and it was sent to her friend. (Fully clothed nothing really weird) She then texted “when he lays on your lap 😍😍😍”. Her friend replied with “you’re winning in life”. My gf then said he’s so hot he’s just too dumb.
I immediately felt a punch to the stomach and walked outside to get some air and clear my head. I came back in and shared that I was very angry and she said she meant it jokingly because her friend she was texting with thinks my friend is super hot. She said she’d never do anything to hurt me and she loves me and wants to be together forever and I have a right to be mad.
I just can’t shake this feeling of betrayal. I do love her and wanted to be with her forever but now I just feel like trust is broken and I don’t know if I can look at her the same anymore.
Would love any feedback or advice.