i(22f) know it’s not even anything remotely uncommon. but i still feel a bit embarrassed by it, especially if it’s something i only really feel comfortable doing alone. after i finish masturbating, i like to taste myself on my fingers and clean them up. i don’t know why i do it, it’s just habit i suppose. i’m not inexperienced but i am still a virgin, just haven’t found the right person/time to lose it. i’ve been getting closer to one of my friends and it’s obvious we’re both attracted to each other. the sexual tension is so thick, all i need to do is make eye contact with him and i’ll quite literally get weak in the knees. i obviously want to act like myself during sex, but that would mean opening myself up to vulnerability. and sharing little quirks and habits i do when i’m alone, and that thought is lowkey nerve wracking.
what if he thinks it’s weird or gets turned off by it?