I knew he didn’t feel the same for me and I knew what would cost me if I tell him the truth – it was losing him.
I was scared of losing him until I realised I lost him long back.
He was flying to see a girl who lives in another city for a date over a weekend. I was feeling very anxious about this. And I was keeping this feeling in sine last 5 months. Just 2 months ago I realised I do love him.
The day he was supposed to fly – I asked him if he has 2 minutes?
He said I’ll be free on Monday now.
I insisted – just 2 minutes? It’s important.
No response.
I knew that it was either in that moment or never.
I checked the flights online and saw that as per flights today he is already in that city since there were no more scheduled flights.
I wanted to have a conversation on call with him but it wasn’t possible anymore.
So I left a long text (I don’t like doing this honestly it feels like dumping)
He replied after a few hours saying he is shocked and confused. Didn’t we decide in start we will stay friend? How?
I replied saying idk. I just realised it and there is no pressure, I’m not expecting anything in return but I had to let you know.
It’s been 2 days and there has been no response ever since.
It’s Monday now!
I dont regret anything and no I’m not embarrassed. I am glad I told him everything honestly. Friendship was already ruined since our dynamic changed long back.
Ever since I told him, I am able to sleep and eat again.