Close enough not to lose me, but far enough away to where there’s no attachment. I have tracked it with this guy who I used to sleep with but moved away.
He reaches out every few weeks, and I the longest without talking to me I think was four months. He doesn’t live by me anymore, yet will reach back out asking how we should do all these smexual things again, and that he wants me to do only a few of these things with him, and I quote, “wants to own my body,”
Yet, he has never taken time out of his life to come to where I am to see me, I have always had to come and see him, and really it’s just once a year if that. I have known him for five years. He has never been clear to me about what he wants, but he did say at one point for me his future mistress. After that, I told him I was pissed.
I am attracted to him, but he is a ladies man and has a drinking problem. He is clearly a red flag that uses me, so why do I still care? Why do I still look to see if he views my story? I care more about what he thinks of me than some of the men that are in front of me.
Has anyone else felt this way? How do you get over someone you know will never love you or want to be with you?