Things were going well for us, we were in a LDR and it was fine. My friend(F) was visiting me and we went out, we had a lot to drink and I passed out(Mind you, I don't drink too often) I was still aware of what was going on just unable to function properly. While I was laid down in an Auto my friend walked away for a minute cause she forgot something, and I think somebody touched me inappropriately. I couldn't see the guy but I know what a bad touch is and it was horrifying.
It took me 2-3 days to talk to my bf about this because I was still trying to process it (He did try reaching out but I couldn't talk to him ) and it was genuinely really difficult for me to open up and so I texted him about this. He read it but didn't reply ( I did text him at 1 am and he usually goes to bed way earlier)
And, he took almost an entire day to reply back so I was freaking out about it.
I asked him why didn't he say anything sooner, he told me he was thinking about what to say but fell asleep. Fair, but even the next day he didn't say anything until… 5-6pm.
I called him, he had questions which I understood and tried to answer,
Towards the end of the call he asked me what were the lessons I learned and asked me to list it out.
This just, made me feel so low.
I do understand that I should be careful and not overdo anything, be safe but.. this just felt humiliating.
The next day he did apologise for being explosive and I was avoiding the conversation cause I was so hurt.
He then said that he felt bad 'cause he couldn't do anything, this is where I lost it and told him that it didn't seem like he cared at all.
By the end of our argument he said, Tell this story to your dad, I'd like to see how he'd react as well.
This sealed the deal for me.
I don't know what the intention was but the whole interaction just put me off.
And, all of this surprised me because he's a gentle being, Level headed.
Maybe I pushed him to become that way but its just so… idk man.
He was also a pretty busy guy so maybe he already had a lot on his plate to deal with..
Its been roughly 3 months now since the split.
There are days I regret my decision, days when I despise him, days when I feel like apologizing.
I had dreamed of a future with him but I guess I'll have to do it all alone😜. Not too bad though, I now have time to spare so I'm doing everything I can to stay busy.
What do you guys think about this situation?