I was a girl full of life. I used to get excited about every little thing. Sometimes I look back and wonder, what if I had never met him? Maybe my life would have been different. And today, I am ending my 3-year relationship. Somewhere along the way, I lost my charm in this relationship.
He brought me flowers only 2 times in three years. No gifts, no surprises, nothing. I suffered a lot, and honestly, I don’t even know how to feel anymore. I lost interest in almost everything. He always blamed me for everything, even though I supported him at his worst (when i was going through alot) emotionally, and even financially. He says he cannot support me emotionally and that I am too sensitive. What hurts me the most is that I talked to him about all of this, but he never changed. And now, I don’t want to ask for the bare minimum anymore.
It has been so long that we have not spoken properly, yet I tried to express my feelings, how I am feeling abt this relationship. He just blames me, put fake accusations, and honestly this relationship has become so toxic. He killed my excitement.
When I see things from his perspective, I can understand some parts. I do get angry when he cannot understand what I want or support me emotionally and I get blamed for getting angry. But it’s so draining. I cannot deal with him anymore. This feels so wrong to me but still..
I dreamt of getting married to him, thats why it is getting harder.
And i have no friends with whom I can share, im suffocating
Is it okay to feel this way? I’m so confused about whether I’m doing the right thing. Your suggestion might help me get through this.