Okay to start this off I have never been in a relationship or had any real experience with woman due to my upbringing in a cult. Fast forward and I moved away from my parents and away from the religion. I've been on countless dates but just never pursue anything with any of the girls I've been out with. At this point I am 23m virgin.
I met this girl a couple weeks and we clicked right away. Extremely like minded and genuinely enjoy each others company and have been really well rounded for each other. We had sex for the first time, which she mentioned for my first time I wasn't that bad and she had worse. Than af few days later I was back at her place, we have sex again and take a nap together. Later that night we're going at it again this time but she's using a toy as I'm doing other things to her. A few minutes goes by and she kinda stops everything scoots back into the bed in a sitting position. I can tell she's upset. To sum up the conversation she was upset with herself and me. She was upset because I was a guy she could see herself doing long term with due to my patient and caring nature but due to my lack of sexual experience she was conflicted. She brought up how she's been with alot of other sexual partners and only which of the two who were long term only ever made her finish. She almost came to tears saying she wish she could take back how many people she's been with since in a way it's numbed her and she doesn't have the patience to teach me what she likes. That being said she did go thru almost an hour explaining the foreplay she enjoys the most and going into detail, noting that I was actively listening so I could be better for her.
How the conversation pretty much finished up with was she needs time to think clearly because at the time she was sexually frustrated. We kissed and I gave her hug and left for the night. She texted me while I was driving to text her when I got home safely and stayed up till I did. ( I live an hour away ). This morning I was just doing some self reflection over the whole situation, during the previous conversation I was very calm and collected but reflecting upon on it their was sometimes where I was so guilt-ridden instead of placing myself in her shoes I was just thinking of my own lack of experience. I typically ghost most the girls I talk to and move on very fast nor do I get attached. That being said I really like this one and I like for some advice on how I could convey that I am not a waste of time teaching the ropes.
TLDR: 24y virgin fumbles hard.