so I’m 18 and I’ve been in a relationship with my bf for 10 months. We have tried having sex like 5/6 times but 1. it hurts too much, like a burning sensation and like someone is tearing me apart down there, 2. i feel like it never enters all the way in, like at most it got halfway in when i was on top of him, but if we’re trying with me under him then there’s no way it’s entering. (we have tried lube, no lube, condom, no condom)
I need help.
I don’t know if it’s vaginismus, if i’m too scared, if he’s too big. (also wanna say that i can’t get wet a lot but that’s just a me problem, i never could get that wet, not even by myself)
I just want answers and I can’t go to a gyno cause my mom will know something is up and she doesn’t wanna know if i have sex or not. But it is also eating me alive because my boyfriend has had A LOT of partners before me (never actual sex, just oral) and it makes me insecure and i feel like i have to compete with his ex partners.
He also has a high libido and I don’t, like it doesn’t bother me as much to not have sex but he has been going out with girls since he was 14, while me on the other hand never even knew how to properly kiss before him.
So i guess im just looking for a little help because im out of options, and talking to my friends is useless and makes me feel embarrassed and less of a woman because none of them have any problems having sex with their bfs.