When I was with my bf I never initiated sex and I said yes purely because I wanted to meet his needs and it’s awful because I am too tight since I’m not aroused. I don’t even feel the need to masturbate and when I try to cause there are times when I feel horny, I don’t feel anything touching myself.
I experienced sexual attraction when drunk, like specifically for someone, sober I feel the need for penetration and sex lots of times but it’s general.
This is an issue for me tho, not because I feel pressured by social norms but because if I get with someone I would like to be able to bring my mental arousal to physically arousal, like I would like to get horny not because I’m horny but because that person is making me horny, I would like to have sex with someone because I want to have sex with them and not because I want to have sex in general.
Can I fix this or am I just asexual?