I ‘22-NB’ have been with my boyfriend ‘23-M’ for around six months. I feel like he’s the love of my life and I adore him. I know he feels the same. One way he likes to show it is by giving me gifts. I am very averse to him buying me things, because I don’t want him thinking I’m only with him for the money. Recently though, he gave me $150 out of the blue as a gift and had to practically blackmail me into taking it. Here’s where the issue comes in. I’m a broke college student, so $150 is huge for me. I can buy some nice food from time to time, I can get a game I like. He was excited to tell me he’d send me money like that every few weeks, but over the past two weeks with this money, I realized I was coming to expect that money from him. That made me uncomfortable, so I asked him not to send me more… But now I feel sick knowing I won’t get more money. It makes me anxious and uncomfortable. I love him so much and I just want my body to quit being greedy. The feeling won’t go away and it’s really overstimulating.
How do I overcome this feeling?