Hi guys so I 18F have been dating my bf (19) for over a year and for a while i’ve had fantasy’s about him touching me or going down on me while i’m asleep/ yk classic robber fantasy. i would have no problem telling him about this except for the fact that im a virgin. we tried to have sex a while ago and it just hurt really bad so we’ve stuck to other means. but the other day when we were getting it on and whatever i thought about how i would probably be more interested in having sex if he kinda took full control and maybe while im jerking him off when he’s on top of me he just puts it in, my bf is a very very nice and caring guy and i doubt he would ever be into any kind of cnc, how do i bring this up 😭 and also would i regret potentially losing my virginity in a sort of cnc setting, i feel like i don’t care very much about virginity as a construct but is that a bad idea? thanks guys 😛