Everything is so complicated and I just don’t know what to do anymore.
Me (28F) and my boyfriend (34M) have been together for about 2,5 years. He has a son (12M) from a previous relationship.
Our relationship is very complicated and a lot has happened in the past few years. The last +/- 6 months have been quite calm thankfully and we have been having more happy moments. We do have our differences, for example he likes to go clubbing and I hate clubbing. Due to everything that’s happened, I also hate it if he goes clubbing. He likes to have a drink sometimes, I don’t drink at all (and have emetophobia, drunk people scare me). But most importantly, he does not want to get married or have another kid. I do want to get married and I think I want to have a kid of my own (if I get over my phobia). Now, he wants to move back to his home country, 5000 miles away. His mom is turning older and is starting to have some health issues. He also generally doesn’t love the country we live in now. My dad is the same age as his mom (almost 70). My mom turns 60 in a month. Both my parents have their own health issues. I also have 2 dogs(6 & 9), the 9 year old has been having health problems for 5 years. He has been having diarrhea for almost 2 years now. My other dog is very anxious about sounds and if he’s without my other dog. Thinking about having to put them in crates in the cargo of a plane scares me so bad, I truly don’t know how I would do that.
I love this man so much and I can’t imagine my life without him, the land he wants to move to is beautiful and people there are so much happier than here and I can see so much benefits. But how can I leave my family behind? What about my dogs?
Sorry for the rant. I am just so confused and I’m thinking about it everyday. It’s literally driving me crazy.
Also, my parents don’t fly so I don’t think they’d come visit me.