I’m seeking some advice/perspective on exploring a kink with my new girlfriend.
Me (M) and my new GF have been dating for about a month. It’s been amazing. We've openly discussed kinks, past experiences, and fantasies. Sex is explosive, with a lot of dominant/dominant switching happening, though I feel the balance has recently started tilting slightly towards her being more dominant.
I mentioned in passing that I had a golden shower experience with a previous partner. She was immediately interested and said she wanted to try peeing on me.
We're meeting tomorrow, and it's happening. We’ve discussed the scene: We'll be in the shower room, I'll be on my knees eating her out, and she will eventually relieve herself without warning. I will let her pee in my mouth and then clean her up.
I'm starting to feel quite nervous, and it has nothing to do with the act itself. I'm genuinely excited about it. My worry is purely about the aftermath and her perception of me.
I really like her. We are building something genuinely beautiful and serious, and I'd hate for things to change after this.
My fear is that she will see me differently after I take on such a submissive role and let her perform this specific act on me.
I'm scared she might lose respect or attraction for me after such a deeply submissive/vulnerable experience.
For the Dominant partners out there: Have you ever initiated a scene where your partner was extremely submissive/vulnerable, and did it change how you saw them outside of the bedroom? Did it impact your attraction?
For the Submissive partners: How did you feel the first time you did something highly submissive with a new partner, and did you feel their perception of you changed?
Any perspectives are appreciated! Wish me luck!
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EDIT: it happened yesterday. We did everything as planned. I sat down on the floor, and started giving her oral while looking at her. At some point she stopped me and let her pee come out straight in my mouth. To my surprise, I liked surrendering to her in such an intimate way. I was humbled, happy to let her own me. I just missed a little aftercare from her. I felt so vulnerable I needed some attention and reassurance.
We talked about the experience after sex. As expected, she felt powerful, at the top of the world, happy to see I surrendered to her and that I would do anything for her. My fears were unfounded, and she admitted she felt even more connected to me now.