Honestly not the biggest dater here but wondering if the dating pool is legit for me? I (f,37) tend to connect more than I date, you know? Well anyway not sure what exactly I’m writing about, just ended up here after limited writing space in a dating app haha. I just feel like I’ve come to a place where I’m so confused by it all. I lived and loved by all these narratives. I’ve wanted to love my story. I wanted to become more self-possessed the older I got, but the older I get, the more I realize how little I really know despite all I do know or experience. The stories have fallen away and it’s all kinda plain. Is this reality? Colorless? Is this politics? I feel past the time it was all supposed to happen normally and I kinda don’t get it now. I want to “date” to distract me from such overthinking because I don’t know if it’s really productive or even enjoyable. But my mind is so obsessed with itself. Maybe that’s why I’m single lol. Jk I’m like rarely ever single. I had a long single phase in my 20s for like 5 years and am always terrified of going through that kind of loneliness again. Idk how that happened cuz I’ve been attractive forever. Welp anyway thanks for letting me waste your time, I’m at target right now.