There’s this girl 18F in my class whom i 18M like a lot. We didn’t really talk much in our first year, but our eyes met quite often. Our first real conversation happened over text when I got hospitalized. I know this will sound bad, but I asked her to send me some BL manga in those messages (she knows I’m not gay). After that, we didn’t talk much, but she still messaged me a few times, even during the summer break.
In our second year, we started going home together since we live on the same street. She actually waits for me by the school fence so we can walk home together. At first, we only talked about school, but after a while we started opening up about personal things—she told me about her traumas, family issues, weaknesses, etc.
When winter came, I didn’t wear a coat, only a sweater, and she started giving me her scarf. When I asked why, she said she was worried about my health.
On Valentine’s Day we went to watch the new Avengers movie together. (She told me the day before that her friends were coming too, but in the end they didn’t.) It wasn’t a date—she just said she was going, and since I like the Avengers too, I could come if I wanted.
In the spring she started acting a lot more comfortable around me: being sassy, teasing me. On my birthday, she was the first to text me—exactly at midnight—and she even sang for me. During the summer break we didn’t talk much either, but she sent me a few TikTok videos that felt like signs (I’ll write the text of those videos down).
This year she started telling me about her achievements, and it kind of feels like she wants me to praise her. She also told me that her only friend forced her to go on a date with a boy, but after the first date she told him it wasn’t going to work.
We also started going to shops together, and she walks really close to me—our hands touch a lot. She told me she’ll give me her scarf again this winter because she doesn’t want me to get sick.
Last week she texted me asking for series recommendations. Then she started talking about how she likes cooking but has no one to eat her food. Obviously, I told her I’d eat it if she cooked for me. She said she’d bring cookies for me and her friend, but on the way home she asked if cookies were fine or if she should make something else. (i might be wrong but as far as i know she didn't bring cookies to her friend)
I got the cookies yesterday, and today she reposted a TikTok about her love language being cooking.
My friends keep telling me to ask her out, but my problem is that we don’t really talk at school since her only friend hates me with all her heart but this makes me feel as if i was just a friend to her nothing more. Im not sure how if this myth is real but she also adds extra letters to the end of her messages.
The text of those videos:
1
Nah cuz how did "for real" become "fr" "brother" become "bro" and "you" become "mine"
2
Hey, do you want to…?" YES. Anything, as long as it's with you. I'll go clean your house with you, too.
3
Just wanted to let you know that I'm jealous of your heart cuz it's pounding inside you and I'm not #yet
4
How about you stop touching that phone and start touching me instead.
5
btw i would pretend to be you in battle and die in your armor but you're not nerdy enough to understand what that means
6
When he calls me pretty, butI'm chubby, have an ugly side profile, dress bummy, and have no jawline so I just assume he's lying
7
Ice skating TOGETHER.
Christmas movies TOGETHER.
building snowman TOGETHER
Christmas TOGETHER
matching pjs TOGETHER
TL;DR; : Am i in the friendzone?