At the start if the semester, I (M25) found out there was this girl (F22) was in 2 of my classes, she’s my friend’s(I’ll call her M) best friend. We’ve met a few times before, mostly at parties and there were some attractions on both sides.
I love to do funny things, since like the 3rd week of september, every monday I’ve been putting a paper with whatever idea I had to make her laugh to the point where it’s part of her routine.
We started to hang out and everything went well until last week where she told M and I that she’s not looking into relationships and she views me more as a friend. M doesn’t understand how it went there, I don’t either.
I can’t wrap my head around this, she’s been touchy the whole time, even after saying this, she pushes me to look better and all that. I’m really lost. I feel like she’s trying to keep me as an option until she’s ready all while she’s “friend zoning” me.
I’m lost, I get attached way too fast, it’s 3 am and I’m overthinking every single interactions we had, I’ve never fell in love that hard, we have similar goals in life, we have the same hobbies too
And finally, I feel stuck in this, we have common friends, we’re in the same classes and we’re in the same group projects where it’s too late too ghost her.
I don’t know what to do with myself, I feel hopeless all while all I can see is hope, it’s ruining my weekend and I hate myself for it