I don't get it, no one talks to me or gives me an avenue but they wonder why I'm quiet. I understand sometimes I have to be the one to reach out or íntiate but it's weird how I always have to be the one to íntiate anything with anyone. I don't get it, I've been told I have a very happy demeanour and I don't do anything to seem unapproachable. And when I do reach out or anything the conversations seemed forced, and don't last long, and I seem to ask good questions and stuff, but it's like everyone tries to go away, or only stay out of obligation. It's been like this my whole life.
I would feel weird being the one always saying hello friend or forcing conversations cause it's like I'm saying " hello I exist notice me please"
What can I do better?