I don't get crushes very often, but at the moment I'm attracted to someone and I think he might be into me. I went to his group philosophy club he runs a couple weeks ago, and again last night. He walked me to my car and I had a very hard time actually speaking. I think when I like someone I get cold/shy.
Why this might be happening: My last relationship was really rough, and I am trying very hard to sus out whether someone is good for a relationship or will bring me trouble. I have major guards up not just romantically but socially – I'm very friendly but not great at letting friends see me upset except one or two.
I would like to try to start moving through some of these guards, and I think this might be why I just clammed up last night and feel anxious. I am not sure how to overcome this, because I'd really like to go on a date with this guy, and I don't really know how to make that happen. I don't really know how to be the one to initiate flirting, initiate asking someone on a date etc. I know traditionally guys ask girls, but I think things will go better if I'm equally able to initiate things rather than wait for someone to express interest.
Edit to say: I am very good once I'm in a relationship, I am excellent girlfriend, very supportive etc. My last relationship was 7 years but I had to break up with them because it wasn't working. It's been about a year since so I'm trying to start getting back out there. I am good in relationships and I am very bad at these initial stages lol.