My husband and I have been together for over 10 years. We have had a-lot of amazing times and many really difficult times. He can be very mean at times and gets angry at me for very trivial reasons and can be verbally vicious in these moments. This has been an ongoing cycle throughout our relationship almost from the beginning. I have tried to leave him several times because of this but every time he cries, begs me to stay, and vows to change but he always ends up having these outbursts on me which have caused a lot of damage to our relationship. He is ready to start a family. I have never wanted kids but was okay with having them for him but now I am I sure. He is pressuring me due to our age but I don’t feel comfortable moving forward given our history and I am not even sure about wanting to continue in the marriage. We have seen therapists individually and together but in my gut I am more unsure than sure about my marriage and starting a family than sure.